ok.it was always you.before i met you, was you already.And now, its having met you that becomes unbearable and i would have so easily given half of that happiness to dive back to pure expectation.So be damned the day i went to that very place for it was to see you and fate had not warned me for the joy i was to live,a joy far more greater that just avoiding fear.You were becoming my dosage,a dosage i needed without sweating..Oh my ruthless pain, my dear companion, to this lonely path of love as love demands to be even when you’re loved back.And me, standing here, condemned to live with exactly what i’ve wished to have.Tell me my love, how far must i finally travel to avoid you when you insist on coming wherever i go? And why,why on earth,divine face, didnt you turn your eyes away from me, when you could free me from the misery to love them from the very first rainy time i’ve looked at them?
Oh damned this very day,damned this very night,damned this very love.You looked at me and i beg you take this look back,i’m not for anybody but your eyes. now.
My precious arrogant,full of sedatives now, Self, i’m sorry, i’ve betrayed you, i admit it, dont cry, i’m in love with someone else,its him, not only you anymore.Silence now.